I never really thought of myself as a blogger, but I thought that it would be fun to start sharing with others about what God is doing in my life. I feel that I am at such a unique place in my life right now - at a cross road wondering which direction God will have me go. It truly feels like an adventure is waiting for me...I just don't know the details, but I am fully confident that God will be a great guide along the way! I am excited about the journey ahead and the people I will meet and places that I will see. So, as far as today is concerned - my day was spent in the office writing child profiles. If you don't know, a child profile is a comprehensive history of a child's journey through placement. We read all their records, collect medical and educational files, and try to talk to all kinds of people - and we get to do it all in 90 days! It may seem like a long time, but when there are other reports and clients to see, it doesn't seem like a lot of time! I am so far behind right now, but I feel that I want to accurately write these two teenage boy's histories. Their stories just break my heart - all the junk that some kids are subjected to and all they have to endure in life just makes me sick to my stomach and brings tears to my eyes. These boys were subjected to so much physical and emotional abuse by their adopted parents about 4 years ago. They had been passed around home to home, then to stop in a home that claimed love but demonstrated something entirely different. Thankfully, one of the boys got so tired of it that he ran away, allowing the boys to be removed from the home! It is amazing though at how different both of the boys have processed their experiences. One is a fighter - ready to prove to the world that he can do anything - he is unstoppable. He will soon be 18 and is desperately looking for a family to call his own! The other boy is almost 17 and struggles with holding his head up - he feels worthless and unloved. He longs to feel the love of a family that will help him stand strong in this life. He breaks my heart the most - I want to just shout God's love to him and telll him how much he is loved by an Amazing Father! If only he would open his heart to the true source of love and worth! Yet, somehow, he can keep smiling - so will I... believing that I can be a shining light of God's love to this young man....
